epilogue



Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Today's post is a short one. I had a lot of things to talk about but because of one small, little trivial matter, I've decided to just post this instead of choosing a proper topic to blog about. After all, this is just the place where I rant, so this is today's rant. The most important one of today.

내가 필요 없다면 내가 싫어진거면
그냥 네 앞에서 꺼져줄게

No matter how far left I go, I'm still so cold inside.

The Korean words and the single English sentence above are not related. Just two expressions of how I felt today (or at least for the past few hours). I really wish that I could lose my voice forever, even if I can't sing the songs I love anymore, even if I can't scream for all my Korean idols, I would really be okay with losing my voice. I have a great lack of mind-vocal box coordination. All the words that I shouldn't have said keep coming out all the time, so it would just be the best if I could lose my voice. I don't really need it anyway. I figure I'll become a better person if I do lose my voice.

나는... 항상 잘못했니. 정말 죄송합니다. 나는 왜 그렇게 못해서?

Living life now is 정말 안되는데. 도와주세요.

★,
Julle 주월

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