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Thursday, November 19, 2009 I guess, until now... It still hasn't been alright. I don't know if I knew, but I think I might have. I pushed the feeling away, but it was always there. Sitting there in the corner, sure that one day it would be noticed. And today, it was finally noticed again. It kind of hurts, when all of you who matter most, couldn't say those two words to me. I don't need anyone else in the world, but the three of you to tell me that. But none of you did, and for that I feel... upset. I don't have the right to feel that way, since I did the way I did, but I can't help the way I feel. The three of you who promised me, broke your promise just as adults always do. Just as humans always do. Even though I shouldn't feel this way, I still do. All of you lied to me, because you told me to try my best, and I did. But it wasn't enough after all. When she didn't do that well, it was alright. And it was for her final exams. I tried my best too, don't you know? I've never tried this hard before. I did it all for you guys. I cried so much too, because I disappointed all of you. I just wanted to hear those two words from you, and everything would have been okay. I would have picked myself up and continued working hard. But until now, I'm still waiting. And I'm getting tired of waiting. 기다리다가 지친다 Julle 줄레 7:24 PM
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